My old posts from 2009 are gone and i don't recall deleting them ?!
Everything's changing, and no one uses blogger anymore i guess. Templates totally looking strange.
Anyway, many things internally and externally have occured since 2020 and i don't think i can possibly write everything down and make it public although i don't think anyone's reading this anyway or know who i am (and for what purpose?). I doubted my sanity at some point. Some "previous life" memory resurfaced again. it happened first in 2010-2011.
Basically i came back from aus, with some "strange" catharsis going on. I have no idea why i was tearing all the way on the plane non-stop, when i have no idea what i'm sad about. And I have no idea why for the first time in my life, i lost my voice for a week and it wasn't accompanied by fever as expected of a viral infection. I basically had to ask my partner for a separation, and just felt totally confused and out of whack. mostly, it is because of the pre-life/previous life memory that came up. sort of recall the agreements that i made. And it totally threw me off the curve.
I heard someone say the word "femininity" and that was a word used in the pre-life/previous life recollection intertwined with current life's agreement. i understand now why there's a good reason we don't recall past lives, because they can really mess you up inside, confuse you. i will never tell this to the person whom i suspect is involved in my recollection. looking like a complete nut. and i already feel like one